My big ass ornament is finally red to get painted 😌🖌️🎨
Took me over a year to finish it to this level. Slowly but surely 🐌🐌🐌
Made from cardboard that I have found on the sidewalk😌
Man…finally a new post! It’s months ago that I have made a post here🥲 my nervous system is horrible dysregulated! I’m slow with everything and the things sometimes overwhelming me! Yeah, it’s the glamorous life of trauma and mental illness!
I’m slow but I’m doing my best here getting my shit together!
Thanks to the Artist MiyaSekaia ( Her BlueSky and her blog )for the Inviting Link❤️ it’s very similar to twitter. It definitely gives me early 2000s twitter vibes…you know back then before it was overrun by bots, trolls and nazis! Would be cool if it stays like that!
Scrolling through BlueSky I have seen artist discussing social media and how frustrated they are with the algorithms. They spoke about that their posts on Instagram almost didn’t get seen by their followers. This comes from people who have thousands of followers and their art is not been seen by their audience because of instagrams shitty algorithm. Some even thinking about quitting Instagrams! There is definitely a shift away from social media back to basics like blogging and newsletters, while searching for alternatives for Instagram & Co.
And I’m seriously at a point where I rather take the time to slowly write a blog post than to stress myself out to create a shitty reel just for the sake of ‘creating content’ to stay relevant!
I’m absolutely ready to cultivate slow blogging/posting because I’m done with all this stress!
So if you have BlueSky and like to follow me there it definitely would glad to see you there. If not that’s also okay if follow me here and/or Instagram. What ever flow’s you boat❤️
It’s a long long time ago that I have used my blog. In the last years it got more and more frustrating to use Instagram, Twitter and Facebook. They really have the nerv to fuck up social media more and more. The algorithms are nightmares for small artists and I’m not creating art to please a fucking algorithm! I created because it’s fun and because there are people who want to see cool art that gives them Inspiration and that enrich their lives! It really pisses me if how Instagram and Co. throw artist, photographer, musician, comic artist, animator, etc…under the bus. I guess they have completely forgotten that artist are one of the main reason why social media has become so huge and successful!
So because all of this is annoying and frustrating I thought I could try it again with this blog! I still will post stuff on Instagram, but I don’t want to be completely depending from it. I also want to post DIY-Videos on YouTube and there will be also be a Patreon page. Beside that I have a Ko-fi page and a mastodon account. I’m also planning to stream on twitch in the future and I’m also thinking about to start a discord server!
So i think it’s time to give blogs a little renaissance✨
OMG, Shame on me! We already have march and I don't have written ANYTHING in this blog!
Time to change that!
One of the reason why I didn't have written anything might be the fact that I was pretty sick in the last weeks. Just for example. In the middle of January I get the novovirus. I get so sick that I had to call the ambulance. I felt pretty sick and weak for a long time.
And now? Now I'm heartbroken? And for me this really feels like being sick! The last days were pretty hard. For me it feels like dying! And I know exactly what is dying in the inside. I have cried a lot, but I also tried to abstract myself from all this shitty feelings. I went to CMC here in Hamburg (a little comicconvention for one day). I was one hour to late because I had problems to stand up. Everything felt so meaningless. But I made it to this little convention...where Everyone was asking why I was late...yeah great! But it was nice! I have meet a lot of my friends and for a couple of hours i was able to forget about the pain. My friend riedel was next to me and we talked a lot. My friend Kuka was able to finally give me my birthday- and christmaspresents. Such a sweetheart! She always makes so lovely presents! Most of the time i have the feeling that i don't deserve such kindness!
I also meet some lovely fans! I always feel honured when people came back to by my stuff. To get another drawing from me or when they show me stuff that is inspired by my art. There was also a camerateam form the WDR. They have made a documentation about the comic-and manga-Scene. So you will be able to see me in this documentation. I'm just talking and smiling. Nothing speacial. But i guess i will look totally stupid.
Yesterday was hard! I felt so sick, depressed and fucking lonley! Lonelyness was never a problem for me! But since i was dumb enogh to fall in love with another person, i'm feeling lonely as fuck!
Being alone is great! But lonelyness just sucks!
But whatever...i didn't know what to do! Because there was only thoughts about death and dying! So much death! The most people would say "I'm alive!" because they fell alive. But i would say when you live, you also dying! But for me fells live more than dying! This is why i would say "I'm dying" because for me it feels like that. This is how my life feels to me.
One of the things that helped me a bit is music.
I love this song so much! The lyrics are awesome! It really describt perfectly how i feel!
Another great song is "Coma White" from MarylinManson. I love this song! And i love the Video! Goddamit this is the kind of music and video that i wanted to make! Really wish i could live in this musicvideo!
I also listen repeatedly to the song "Salva Nos 2" in my iTunes-playlist! Sadly it's not on YouTube! But it's so beautiful and dark! This also the kind of music that i wanted to make!
I have listen to this song and decided to get drunk. And it was the best idea ever! To get drunk is, of course, not the solution for everthing! But yesterday it helps! So i listen to this songs, get drunk and was able to work on my soloexhibition! It was awesome! The alcohol helps to drown the pain and the feeling! And then i have done what all good artist do in such a situation! They take this shitty feelings and make art out of this shit! And so far i really like what i have done! And today, i really feel i bit better than yesterday...
Since weeks i wanted to write a new post. The best thing is that i have so many things to write about, but my brian is constantly overloaded by feelings, thoughts, ideas but also by light, noises, other humans etc... Almost everything that comes from the outside. I hate that! It always gives me the feeling of turning totally insaine because it dosen't matter where i go, the stimulus satiation is always with me!
This is the reason why i have started to meditate and it really helps. For the meditaion i go to to the buddhistic centrum here in hamburg. Everone is free to join it. The meditaion is about 30-40minutes and in this time i just concentrate on the voice of the guy who guides the meditation. After this i much more calm and able to concentrate again.
Another big problems that i have right now is my insomania. Right now i work at night and sleep the whole day. The pills wich should send me to sleep dosen't working anymore. The just hinder me to lose weight and this is really frustrating as shit. Maybe i need new pills...
But even when everything is pretty fucked up (again) i get my shit done...somehow. I'm not lazy! I'm pretty active. And because of this i also can show you new stuff from my soloexhibition "Psychodolls"
If you have any ideas what to do in case of heavy insomania or/and stimulus satiation you can leave a comment here :)
The Last weeks was kind of chaotic and i don't really why. I just had chaos in my head and just had some trouble with my daily life and my sleep. But i was also pretty productive in this time. I was chaotic but i had so much fucking energy. I have started to paint stuff for my Soloexhibition "Psychodolls" and i also have joined the "Inktober" "(describtion and pictures below)
I try to go back to my "normal" lifestrucktur and will try to update regular again...still searching for the right day to update this blog.
MegaMangaCon 2017
I have some cool News for you. If you follow me on Twitter and Facebook you might know already that i have a table at the MMC2017. I didn't expect that. Specially because i had this year already a table and i just thought i wouldn't getted allotted a secound time.
I was pretty happy when i discoverd that i have a table again at the MMC. That means that i can promote my soloexhibition "Psychodolls". You will have the chance to see some small original artworks and maybe also to win some Art. And like always there will be prints and merch for all of you who can't afford an original painting or who just like to buy merch.
Inktober
It's Inktober (and it's almost halfway done!). That means: Time to ink some stuff! Actually you draw everyday in oktober something with ink. But my personal challenge is to finish some old unfished stuff beside my exhibitionstuff.
First entry:"Halloweenwicht"
Done for my friend Lily!
Second Entry:
"Sexy Halloween Witch 2016"
This is a redrawing form an sixteen year old drawing
Old vs. New
Here you can see how i have improved over the years.
Third Entry:"Create yourself"
In my opinion its all about creating ourself.
Create the life and self that you want to be!
Fourth Entry:"Cojoined Sisters"
Fivith Entry:"Depressed Unicorn Girl"
I'm thinking about to adding one colour. Maybe blue or violet.
I'm also thinking about to make some prints out of it!
Thats all for now. More Inktoberentrys and Psychodollstuff will follow.
Feel free to leave a comment if you like my stuff and this blog.
Welcome to the secound entry! I'm a bit late this time! I still have to figure out on wich time and day i post my blogentrys and i was so busy last week that i don't found the time finish this entry.
But whatever i will find the right timing for this whole blogthing...
I have notice, that when you work on such a big project like an artexhibition the most time is just planning! You made plans to get money, plans about the colours and the sizes of canvas, plans about how you get the whole fucking stuff in the end to the exhibitonroom and so on...
And you have to make, of course, sketches! A lot of sketches! To find the right idea! As you can see below i have already get some ideas for what i want to paint on canvas. Some of the sketches will be drawn on very huge canvases.
I'm not sure how many sketches i will show.
Give away
There will be a give away on my Facebookpage. The rules are easy. You just have to spend at least 5€ or more on my Leetchipage and you have the chance to win this original drawing from me :)
I'm about to finish it! So stay tuned for the finished drawing and more sketches!
I'm VictoriaVioletvonGeisterhausen
and this is my very own personal Blog. I have decided to use this
little space of the Internet to write about my Life and the strange
Things that do and like. Essentially i do that for myself. I want to write down some of my everyday occurrence because it should help me remember events in my life more easier. I have some trouble to remember the right Dates and Times of a lot of Events. So i hope that writing down Things and Events here will keep my Mind a bit more clearly. But my Everyday Life is not the only thing that i will write about. I'm an Artist and i draw, I paint, I make music, I sew, I do handicraft and, and, and...
You can be sure, it will not be boring!
Another big thing for the next months will be my Solo-Exhibitionnext year called "Psychodolls". I will try to make an Entry about the Psychodoll once a week. There will be Photos, Sketches, Wip, Videos, etc ... I also have started a donation-pool. If you want to support me in this project you can donate on this site (So far only in German, but an English Translation will follow!)
So far, i'm not sure for a fix day in the week when i will post my Entries. Maybe Monday, because it's the Begin of the week ... But so far i'm not sure. I still have to figure it out.
